Crimes
I stole food. I "stole" food from the pantry. She had baby food, Pablum, for sick cats? for something special involving a pet. I mixed it with cold milk and ate it. It was soft and sweet. nourishing. She complained. loudly. to the wind. about someone taking it. I took a big can of sliced peaches and ate it in my room. I put the empty can under my bed. I stole Johnny's chocolate Easter eggs. a few at a time. when I took the last one, I left a nickel in its place. She screamed about that. I said nothing. probably I didn't have to. probably my face said it all. The screaming was all that happened.
When I remember my fantasies I realize now they were in some way sexual. It was an assembly line I was on. We were naked or partially clothed. We were helpless on the assembly line. It moved past a big fat being, was it male? who looked or touched as we passed by. It was dark.
I used to clean my room by taking everything and piling it on the bed, then carefully putting it all back neatly. I did that twice. I thought that was cleaning.
